The worst day ever

Today happened the worst day in my life. People say, that unhappy events walk in pairs. That’s true, at least today. Two extremely negative things happened today to me. Although the Tarot predicted them, I hoped that it had been wrong. Unfortunately hadn’t. What was predicted weeks ago, just happened today. I even don’t have force to cry anymore. I am so overwhelmed with the unhappiness, that I have stopped reacting. I stay calm, peaceful and try to accept what has happened. I know, I couldn’t prevent it. It was written to happen. Such fate.

The flight

I have one person on my mind today... Something finished, before it really started... I feel so sorry, sad and a bit philosophical... what next?

This morning no Sun. Grey sky, wet grass, some shower. I think it will be good day for gardening - making new vegetable beds, sowing and planting some plants. Mick will help me with it, as his hand is soar and he cannot continue his task in the woods.

I have tried to hide my tears before my guest while I was smiling to him this afternoon while preparing breakfast for us. It was late breakfast. I stood up at 11 at noon. Now he went to do some gardening and soon I am going to join him. The life goes on. I cannot let myself fall into depression. But this day my eyes are wet. I hope he cannot notice that.