A Novel

Saying truth – since ages I haven’t been reading to any new novels. This year I have listened to some – two or three Polish novels, some Russian short stories and one English novel.
I also started to read and listen one American contemporary romance, but since the story is boring – I didn’t completed it yet. The other reason why I didn’t completed it is – I changed sleeping place and sleep far away from my computer which I use for listening to the stories. The sleeping time is the only time when I have time to listen to anything or if I work in the kitchen. But recently I work all days outside.

But today an online friend of mine – a nice American cavalier – recommended to me an interesting novel.
So I have found the source on the Internet where I can read it – and started to read it.
It’s Paulo Coehlo novel – Eleven Minutes.
I just started to read it, but I enjoy it :)

http://britamerican.org/download/library/Eleven_Minutes.pdf

So, as I said - cultural exchange doesn't require to see people in person. I may have pleasure from cultural exchange thanks to the Internet :)

Beautiful Wednesday

Today beautiful day. Perfect day for working outside. I am eagerly heading to my orchard to work there. But first my horses need oat. Hens and geese already were given their grain and water. Cat has full bowls of food, but is begging for something more. Dog is waiting for her food be cooked. I am cooking for her rice with vegetables. I have eaten sandwich with cooked pumpkin slice and fried egg and am drinking tea now.

Today I am listening to French Music which I find really relaxing and pleasant to listen to:
http://www.polskastacja.pl/webplayer/?channel=38

I feel perfectly well with awareness, that I don’t have to do anything extra than normally. I mean, that I don’t need to clean the house and cook various foods according to coming strangers. That I don’t have to buy more food and more various one. I cannot buy more different food this month since I need to buy hay for the winter.

For me Internet cultural exchange is perfectly enough. I don’t need to meet all those people in person, specially if it means for me extra work and expenses.. Besides, I think, if someone offers her/his help at my farm – should deliver this help instead of expecting from me to have done most job before they come. If they want to have clean place here – they should clean it – not expecting me to do it. When I am alone – I don’t have to do it. I have lots of tasks outside the house – no time for housekeeping. I do only really essential basic things in the house like washing dishes and table. I don’t have time for anything else. Still lots of apples is waiting for cutting them and frying. But I need to go outside. I prefer to go outside. It’s nice weather today and I can do something in the orchard. I like to work outside :)

Refugee

I have decided to hide away in my rural refugee for the coming months... Maybe longer... Maybe forever...
Last two years I was trying to open myself and my farm to strangers. What for? Some volunteer programs claimed that this is so awesome exchange and experience. Well – it wasn’t ;))). Was it worth of trying? I am not sure. Nothing really interesting or exciting happened during this time. Except some big problems created by two fucking Couch Surfers from Cracow. Accept from that - nothing significant. There were some nice moments, but no real friendship was created. Okay -  not true. At least one real friendship was created. Help? Not much. More troubles for me than help. Okay. Some helpers were helpful and meaning really well. 30% of helpers were really helpful. Rest 70% not so much. They were rather burden or waste of time to me than help. Should I continue? Hmmm... What for? Do I need it? Well, I need help. Lots of help. But not this kind of which they were offering.

It was rather exchange than a help. Real help doesn’t require anything in exchange. Help doesn’t demand anything in exchange. So it was not help – it was an exchange. Satisfactory? Maybe sometimes, with a few helpers... But is this what I want to continue? I don’t know. Most of these people know nothing and have no skills needed here. Apart from that, if some of them have some skills – from the other side they have some flaws. Some flaws are so big, that I prefer not to use their skills than bear their presence here. So? Should I tolerate here strangers if I don’t like it? Of course – I shouldn’t. But maybe sometimes it will be possible to meet someone sincerely friendly and nice who would be a pleasant companion to me and also some help for some time? We will see. Right now I don’t feel like hosting anybody. I may host only people who have soul and heart bigger than egoistic ego :). A very few of us live in this world ;) So it would be good to meet sometimes... It may be pleasant experience... Worth of trying...  :)